12 August 2012
I've gone back and forth on how much to reveal about the "real me," because it's not all pretty rainbows and unicorns (as we all know from the "Things I'm Afraid to Tell You" series).
Anyway, here goes...
I lost my day job a few weeks ago. I was already looking for a way out (as I've been working toward my photography dream job) but when your job quits you instead of the other way around, it's kind of a shock.
My boyfriend and I are in a rough patch and I don't know if we'll make it out to the other side together. I'm not feeling very optimistic about the eventual outcome. Breaking up (and moving out, if the breakup does happen) totally sucks.
My friends and family have been truly amazing over the past few weeks (I mean, they're always amazing, but they really come through when I'm at my most vulnerable. They're awesome like that). I think one of the best things they've been able to say to me is that I'm at a turning point in my life -- there's a lot of change and not all of it welcome, but I have a unique opportunity that many people don't get to make some real decisions about what I want and go after it. I no longer have anything to distract me from pursuing Anna Delores Photography as my full-time gig, which actually makes me really happy. My parents have already welcomed me into their home, if that's what I decide I need and want to do (thus saving hundreds of dollars on rent every month).
I'm in the midst of some crazy, confusing, sometimes depressing, sometimes enthralling changes. I hope y'all will stick around while I renegotiate my sense of self and regain a firm footing on my world, my goals, my life.